The thorn in my flesh

In the short time I have spend here on earth so far, I have heard many people use the expression "thorn in my flesh" in many different ways. The truth is nobody really knows what Paul was talking about in 2 Cor 12 when he said "there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me". Yet personally there where times in my life when I felt I had a thorn in my flesh.

My definition of this expression would be, "something very annoying that you do not really know how to deal with yet you can not do anything about it". That is exactly what I feel these days concerning waiting. Being back home and trying to figure out what to do with my time is an annoying thought process. But the thing that I dislike the most about it is waiting on God.

Every day I wake up with all these "brilliant" ideas in my head that I want to crystallize. Ideas on how to make money, connect with people and even invent something. The only problem with these things is that they are my ideas and things that I want to do. When I pray and ask God for His guidance, He usually tells me to wait and He will direct me.

There has been many instances in the past that I felt God was showing me to wait on Him. And you would think that by now I have mastered this technique. But the truth is I still have a lot to learn. While I was in Montana a fellow once said "let time be time and not force the process". That is exactly what I need to learn. For the Bible promises that:

Those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint